Irony at it's finest

Where has this whole thing led to?  It's so hard to look back on a series of events in my recent past and really understanding why God allows the things he does to happen.  Sure everything works for the good of all who love him (romans 8:28).  But I don't see that right now.  I do not see why things worked out the way they did, why I lost a great friend in the process, why I am a Younglife leader feeling so out of place, and why I am so on my own down here in DC with no outlet, feeling lonelier and lonelier and angrier and angrier at God.  It's like every day I am floating out to the ocean, being caught by the current.  I get bursts of energy to get back, and I feel like I need to get home and it is a dire need to be safe with God on the shore, yet inevitably they fail and soon I am exhausted and carelessly drifting out to sea again.  Praying for a lifeboat... praying

She loves her mama's lemonade
And hates the sound that goodbye's make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her

She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees make her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's given boys what they want
And tries to act nonchalant
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction

She never stays the same for long 
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't want to feel this way
Only 17 but tired

She would change everything, for happy ever after
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is but no one's told her that's okay

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She would change everything, for happy ever after
Caught in the in-bewteen a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home